Monday, May 10, 2010

so my back is hurting now... fire kind of burning teamed with extreme tightness ... oh yay.

9 stitches later and i have to go back next week for 2 more moles removed. another 10 stitches. wooo ... dudes dig scars yeah? lol...

i have been in deep and thinky mode alot the past few weeks... even today a blog i read had an article on love and it got me thinking, where are all the good old love stories gone? what ever happened to happily ever after?

i do in fact feel like a robot somedays. hence why i love that merina and the diamonds song " i am not a robot"....

at what point do you shut off from the world? at what point do you think 'this just isnt worth it anymore" im an eternal optimist, i love people. i love love. i love the world. my children . my family. my partner.

i fear i am becoming slowly jaded by life.


at the doctor today while i was being 'sliced and diced' we got talking ( an hour and half apt will do that) he mentioned my age... im getting closer to 30 and had i considered my fertility. i wasnt getting younger were his words...
geees thanks mate. i adore my doctor but this was a small wake up call. do i want more kids? i dont know. i just dont know what i want anymore.

we talked about everything from god to religion, schools, life, death, love, diets, and over sexed teens in the media...

great convo... but left me feeling , empty?

bono said it best didnt he " i still havent found what im looking for' ...


what is it im looking for? i hav love, i have provided 2 children with life, i have a home , food , i found my 'niche' in photography...

what exactly is it that i havent found or need to find or feel im missing?

i hate that i am misjudged or seen from someone elses perception of who they think ia m , or what i am feeling/thinking...

why isnt it ever just easy?


if youre reading this, whoever you are, leave me a comment, let me know im not just blogging to the nothingness that seems to follow me .



sorry for the ramble post. i have a temp and im freezing, work that one out.

tis all for now


danielle x

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

You're not blogging into nothingess...there's at least one person reading this blog. :-)

danielle said...

show your face! LOL... :)

Anonymous said...

I have no face :p

Post Grad Hair Cut said...

Eep! That is a hard comment to hear from your doctor. I'm feeling similar about life these days...

danielle said...

thanks for the comments guys... anon has no face? LOL

Anonymous said...

Yeah, you know. Like that Mel Gibson movie. haha

danielle said...

no i dont like mel gibson. hes a tool. religious crazy tool. LOL

btw im pretty sure the movie with the guy with no face or whatever is face off with nicolas cage :)

Anonymous said...

I never said I liked the man...I mean, the Passion of the Christ was an authentic recreation of a book of myths! So what! lol.

And no, I was thinking of Mel - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Man_Without_a_Face :-)

Anonymous said...

hey its katherine AKA aden2005 :)
I read your blog all the time, i think about you and your family always in my thoughts, oh one more thing your photos rock up. You inspire me.....

danielle said...

so anon is katherine? or someone else LOL

thanks for the nice comments katherine.. x

Anonymous said...

I'm not Katherine :-)

danielle said...

LOL this is kinda funny... man or woman?

So Now What? said...

Hey there. I followed your blog after you followed mine, but then left to do something else. Then I got your comment re: your husbands ashes. Then I felt like a fraud. Following and then fecking off.

I want to read lots more now. Only read the first few.

So far, I can't get enough :)

danielle said...

hey thankyou for liking my ramblings....

some days i am simply just full of shit LOL

Anonymous said...

does it really matter what sex I am, danielle? You think so two-dimensionally :p

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